It’s night time again, and I don’t feel that I have had enough of today.  I woke up at around 9am this morning, which was later than usual because last night I had been playing games until very late before I had gone to sleep. After I finished my shower, I repeated my routine, having breakfast, checking news on my Facebook and Instagram, and then reading stuff.

I have been kind of anxious because of the chaos formed by the epidemic of COVID-19, so reading is one of the techniques I have been trying doing to ease my mental health. Currently, I spend most of my free time on reading Maybe series, consisting of three novels, by Colleen Hoover. I honestly feel better when reading books these days because I tend to forget about what is really happening around me.

Also, due to the fact that my working schedule isn’t busy, I have time to restart my blogging, yet this time I put more focus on random journal writing. The fact that I have not been able to travel means I have got nothing new to write about too. It is one side effect of the outspread. Anyway, the journal section covers what is going my mind on my daily basic that inspires me, and I don’t really care about the topic or category. 

To be honest, I haven’t had any specific genre on my mind, but I clearly know that writing is one of my passions which I would like develop when I am older. My dream is to become one of well-known authors in the world,  which is too big for me. I know, yet I don’t care because I like to expect for the best, and I believe this ambition will guide me through any possible paths I  could take in the future to reach that point.

By the way, I think I got to go now because staying late again might get me sick tomorrow which is my working day. Having sickness is the last thing I want to see during this season because not being able to go away has stressed out a lot, especially my plan to continue my master degree. It has been put on halt, and it is highly likely that I will have to defer my study into next year intake because my university country’s border has still been closed and my VISA process remains silent at the embassy. 

Even though how much this pisses me off, I can’t do nothing, but just keep calm and wait. I hope everything will be back to normal as soon as possible, so I can resume all operations of my life goals. Moreover, I hope my family, my friends and I can get through within good health.

Take care you all, night! 

After reading a few chapters of Maybe Now by Colleen Hoover, I noticed a beautifully meaningful quote from the novel. It says “It was hard falling in love with someone who was committed to someone else. It was even harder trying to prevent it from happening.”

This is probably one of the most moving quotes I have even read through my life. Coming through this bitter-sweet reality of wording makes me feel like I am having a box of chocolate in the morning right after I brush my teeth, and I can feel its taste on the top of my tongue early of the day. In fact, there can be at least implications from the quote, basing on readers’ experiences. 

If you read the quote for the first time, you will see the unpleasant part of the line which reminds of many people out there who are dreadfully falling in love with a person who has already been in a relationship with somebody else. Their existence might not even be seen by the person they cherish, or even if the person is aware of their intention, he or she might not care because all commitment and attention are paid to someone else whom he or she treasures the most. 

This is insanely hurtful, yet the question is how this could possibly happen. Just like what you all might have repeatedly heard from people saying that love is blind and unconditional. It really is. In my view, I believe people tend to fall in love without having purposes to love. It is just a moment when their heart opens its door to save that person’s identity and develop a crush on him or her immediately. Thus, this natural occurrence of sentimentality is practically far beyond what we, as human beings, are capable of reaching to prevent it from happening. 

In contrast, if you have read the book, you would clearly comprehend the actual cause of its situation. The utterance of the quote was just made due to the feelings of discomfort and jealousy from a girlfriend of a man who had texted with his ex-girlfriend about a little thing. The man doesn’t cheat on the girlfriend because they’ve all known that it was just a friendship-related conversation right there. No matter what, the circumstance here would truly be weird and let the girlfriend feel like she is just a third wheel. 

Actually, the man was also aware of his girlfriend’s concern, so he decided to clarify and make things right back on track by asking her right to the point of how she felt about the text. After they talked, his assurance has made her awful mood fade away, and they clearly know that what really matters now is they love each other. 

To sum up, I personally think that sad-looking quotes or words don’t always come from a broken person, but they might have been stated by in-love people who are mistakenly and temporarily confused by their own hypothesis. Yet, it isn’t their fault to have felt that way because this is love, and love comes with all sorts of feelings. To love right, like the people in the book do, I believe that discussion, clarification and reassurance are always needed because they show you care about each other.

2020 doesn’t turn out to be the year that everyone wanted it to be. Outspokenly, the first quarter of the year was completely sucked because of the widespread of Coronavirus, and the rest is full of uncertainty. We don’t know when it will be passed, or when we will have the vaccine or cure of it. 

Seeing the news updated on TVs and social medias, people have been soaked with anxiety, worrying about ourselves and family who might be unconsciously infected with the virus. I am one of the examples. Recently, I have been really stressed of the situation in which I have fallen and challenged. This has irritated my own work and study too because I can’t concentrate well on the tasks. 

Even though I am currently working through online platform, still I am required to travel to my office as it is the place where I have to complete my duty as a teacher. Thus, I must be really watchful and always keep an eye on my personal practice of hygiene, in which I frequently wash my hands with sanitizer or alcohol. Plus, I also wear surgical mask whenever I am outside of my home to reduce the risk of bringing bad luck back. 

Besides, there is a good thing that my parents and my sister have stayed home since the government decided to closed down all public and private educational institutions halting all forms of physical classrooms. In term of proactive prevention strategy, I do really appreciate this effort from government as it supports social distancing which is the most powerful way to slow down the number of infections.  

Having tried all my best to prevent myself from this severe virus, I hope that I can increase the extent of my family members’ safety. Moreover, I hope we all will go through this hard time together.